Hi! It's the Little Jewish Girl From Brooklyn here...

Hi! It's the Little Jewish Girl From Brooklyn here...
Shalom & Wuuuuuuuz Uuuuuuup!

Thursday, January 28, 2010


What ARE YOU thinking about today? WANTING ANSWERS?

I am thinking about all the times I go onto GOOGLE to find answers to questions I have. I read all these great blogs by people just like me. 

But can't I just talk to the experts and get the answers!? I realize today that the problem is, often, the best answers are the ones we discover ourselves! THE BEST ANSWERS ARE OFTEN THE ONES WE DISCOVER AS WE EXPLORE OPPORTUNITIES.  Sounds deep huh? 

I put the experts in my life on pedestals sometimes as if they are mini-gods. Oh Lord, my God, forgive me for this. 

 Lots of answers can be aquired from asking our doctors, lawyers and couselors, other people who do what I do- and do it better than me. 

BUT I RECALL TODAY THAT THERE ARE SOME ANSWERS GOD WISHES FOR US TO FIND ON OUR OWN. He knows we need to find it by searching, the search (the process) itself makes us wise, and in the end, it makes us a blessing to others. If we have all this information, we can teach others and help them when they have a need.


 Luke 22:31 says "Simon, Simon, Satan has asked to sift you as wheat. But I have prayed for you, Simon, that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned back, strengthen your brothers."

This scripture above could take up pages of explanation. I encourage you to google go more in depth...LOL I LEAD YOU TO GOOLE! I am not a Bible scholar and Baby Bella is waiting for me so I only want to touch upon the latter part of the scripture if you don't mind. What I notice is Yeshua telling Simon and showing us that because of the process and pain we have gone through, we will be able to use that pain to strengthen others. 

STRENGTHEN: (transitive) To animate; to give moral strength; to encourage; to fix in resolution; to hearten.

Just for today, I can know that my searching for answers will be used to bring joy to others one day. Perhaps the answers I find will be answers that will help someone else.

 I might even DECIDE TO ENJOY THE SEARCH! What a novel idea! It might be painful to NOT KNOW, but I can decide to enjoy my day whether I have found what I need or not. Why? Because I am loved and have the blessing of giving love. My joy is based on the love of God and not on people, places and things. And certainly, I WILL NOT ALLOW MY JOY TO BE BASED ON HAVING MY QUESTIONS ANSWERED! So SELF! Get outa the way! This little Jewish girl from Brooklyn is gonna enjoy this day!


Step 1 (The 12-steps of AA and Alanon) says "We admitted we were powerless over alcohol (people places and things) - that our lives had become unmanageable. (I added text in parentheses which can be used for those who are overcoming from other addicitions- like addictions to obsessing)

King David said this in Psalm 131:1 

 "Lord, my heart is not proud;
      my eyes are not haughty.
   I don’t concern myself with matters too great
      or too awesome for me to grasp"

AVINU MACHENU, My Father and King,
I admit to you today that I am powerless over people places and things. I am powerless to change the fact that I don't yet have answers to my questions. I surrender all to you and enjoy THE NOT KNOWING. After all, YOU KNOW WHAT IS BEST FOR ME! (Isaiah 48:17)  Speak to my heart as I read your instructions for life (The Word of God) and journal about my cares. LET ME SEARCH FOR YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE I KNOW! Let me rejoice that I know You, Y'shua know all the answers and that You are on my side and living in me to guide me. Amen.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

DAYENU! The God who is more than enough for us

Psalm 37: 18-19 
Day by day the Lord takes care of the innocent,
and they will receive an inheritance that lasts forever.
They will not be disgraced in hard times;
even in famine they will have more than enough.

TRUSTING GOD FOR MORE THAN ENOUGH! Oh My Gosh, it should totally NOT BE ME writing this! I have so much to learn about trusting God- especially when it comes to money/provision. In these hard economic times, even those who were wealthy are struggling. Everyone is suffering a little I think...right?

What did I learn about trust growing up?
I was brought up in a reformed Jewish family in Old Mill Basin Brooklyn. Yes! I am a little Jewish girl from Brooklyn. We were taught that God existed but that he was very far away, perhaps too far to make personal and detailed requests. We were taught that education was our greatest goal and money and love came in a close first or second or somewhere in between. I was told that when I grew up, I should become a laywer or doctor, or marry one!!!! LOL

Here I am in Nashville, TN now married almost 11 years to a youth pastor/tent maker. (tent-maker meaning he works in the corp. world by day and preaches by night or weekend) My parents were not thrilled that I married a Christian man at first. But seeing how real and genuine and loving Joe was, they came to LOVE Joe in a very special way. He cares about them like no one else does. That's Joe- my sweet man that I cherish, sent to me by God. 

So trusting God was TOTALLY NOT something I learned growing up. So where do we go now? Well, I look at scripture and then I learn from my favorite program- the 12-step program, balanced in it's approach, originally based on scripture and started by Christians. 

To reflect on the scripture above first:
It says God will give us MORE THAN ENOUGH or as we say in Hebrew, DAYENU! (pronounced Die-aye-nu) At Passover we sing a song that says Dayenu. You might know my song Dayenu as well- sort of a youthful version of the good old traditional. We say in the song, that if God only gave us His book of instructions- His Word, His Torah, we would have said- that's sufficient. If God would have given us the day of rest, it would have been sufficient, and so on,

I believe the song is saying that when God blesses us or gives us what we need or provides for us, it's like, an un-explainable shower of love and goodness that looks like niagra falls! We say DAYENU TO GOD recognizing that He is OUR PROVIDER AND GIVES US MORE THAN WE ASK FOR OR IMAGINE if we just believe and sometimes even when we foolishly don't.

Let's look at Step Three of the 12-step program:
Step 3 says "Make a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of a God, as we understand him." The God of my understanding is Y'shua. It's clear after reading some of the over 500 references in the Hebrew Scriptures over the years that these references are describing the Messiah and they are describing Jesus or Yeshua in Hebrew. (See If you read my testimony, you'll see that I have seen He is Messiah in so many ways- through reading the proof in the Bible, from being healed of anxiety and seeing him answer prayer when I pray in HIS name.

Make a DECISION to turn my will over? Oy boy, I am quite indecisive. So this is gonna hurt! LOL. I cant even decide what to wear in the morning let alone decide to turn my life over!!! Lol. But I have decided that HE is all knowing and all powerful and that he knows what is best for me. (Isaiah 48:17) Turning my Will and life over to God? Can't just say it with my lips. Must mean it. I do this by "taking the actions (I need to take) and letting go of the results." Or, doing what I CAN do and letting go of what I CANNOT do. (See the Serenity Prayer)

For example, If I have trouble trusting God about provision, I make a list of some things I CAN do- baby steps- like- if I have a business, an example would be 
"TO DO: acquire more clients in my business, call 3 people today who are interested"
Then, I LET GO OF THE RESULTS after doing those things. 

Meaning, at the end of the day, I close the books, the to do lists, the computer and exhale. I did what I was called to do, now I am gonna let God do the rest.

Not only will He provide more than enough. BUt also, HIS LOVE is more than enough for us. Like a child embraces her Mommy or daddy, I pray we all embrace HIM today and rest in Him.

Hope this blessed you. Love to hear from YOU. I ask that you keep the focus on yourself- your relationship with God and what has worked for you. Everything I have ever learned or gained was usually from someone else's experience, not preaching. LOVE TO HEAR FROM YOU! Thanks for listening!