My emotions are bursting as I type, not knowing what to say or how to
express myself. But I am passionatly aware that the enemy of my soul has
tried to trick me more than once into thinking I am not worth it. There
have been times that even though my BRAIN says, I am loved and I am
crowned with splendor by God, I fear I am not worth one thought, one
friendship, one heart. "Give up live ministry performance!" the voice
says. "No one cares about your message & your existance," the voice
says.
But then I recall the voice of my God, the voice of my mother and the
voice of my husband and mentor Joe Franco. All three of these voices
have been powerful influences in my life. All three of these have
spoken (to me or about me) with greatness of attitude and overwhelming
excitment about my future. The Word of God in the Jewish Scriptures
(book of Jeremiah) says that God has plans to prosper me and you. There
are tons of beautiful scriptures about how I am (and you are also) a
crown of splendor in God's mighty hand and how when we believe in Him,
we become a royal priesthood, a holy nation...ROYALTY!!!
I try therpay on myself. "SNAP OUT OF THIS," my heart yells at me. "None
of us feels we are worth much at all until the Lord comes along and
shows us our value is in Him." A more gentle kind of therapy follows. I
imagine how I would react if my own daughter told me she doesnt feel
worth anything. Oh my goodness and if SHE said she wasnt worth it to ME,
I would utterly embrace her. I would look her in the eyes and with
every bit of ferver within me, I would tell her that her feelings are
not facts. I would tell her she is worth more than the moon and the
stars to me.
So what do we do with our twisted minds? How do we tame the thoughts
which turn us away from God's will and from loving ourselves? We MUST
surround ourselves with praiseworthy friends who lift us up, music which
lifts us up and the Word of God. We MUST pray & let God heal us. We
can do that now.
LET'S PRAY TOGETHER:
Father forgive me for thinking I am not worth it. You made me and I
dont mean to insult your beautiful works. You said in Psalm 145 that I
am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Help me to love and value myself each day no matter what I do or dont do
and no matter what others say or don't say. Lord, love me and teach me
how to love myself as you do.
Love, your princess, Michelle Gold
Inspired by this article: http://www.allaboutphilosophy.org/what-am-i-worth-faq.htm
Sunday, May 27, 2012
BUT AM I WORTH IT?
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